Life's calling.

I’m sick of calling my husband “hubby” on my blog. But I don’t want to use his name either, as he doesn’t want me to. Name suggestions please...thinking Mr.M?

Anywhooooo.

Got our results back....hubby’s count has gone up to 200 thousand. Good that there has been an increase, but still nowhere near enough to get pregnant. Dr Fox is a nice doctor, he wants to create a family for us, but he is also a realist and I appreciate that. There is no need to sugar coat the truth. Even though his count has gone up, Dr Fox said it is still “very very very EXTREMELY low” and suggested that we keep freezing sperm. Yeah no worries...at $400 a pop ill get right onto that :/ that is only for a year as well, have to pay $270 for every following year, per sample! AWESOME!

Most of my readers know me, and would agree that I am quite a nutter! I regularly have little chats in my head about what kind of speeches I would make at different occasions. Totally normal, yeah? My latest speech has been one that I want to say to everyone who likes to tell me what I should do as a career. I’m a very creative person, jack of all trades. I can bake, sew, craft, cook, talk, style, organise, prepare. 

Careers that have been thrown around by myself and others include: Wedding planner, events manager, invitation maker, florist, makeup artist, hairdresser, personal assistant, comedian (by my sister, she finds me hilarious!), gift wrapper, nanny, chef, caterer, baker, etc the list goes on.

 I have dabbled in almost all of these areas, but nothing really clicked. For the last 6 months I wondered why? Any of these things I could make a career out of (maybe besides the comedian, Ha!) so what gives. You know what I realised, all these things make for a great MOTHER! The one thing I have always felt I was meant to be. I’m going to go out on a limb here and say that I am going to be a kick arse mum! Can you imagine the parties I would through, the hair styles I could do, the gifts I could wrap, the meals I could cook, the play dates I could plan. I’ve been given many talents that I now truly believe are there to make me a great mum.

BRING IT ON!

xx

Surreal

It's a very odd feeling sitting in a waiting room full of couples waiting to see their doctors about various IVF appointments. It is silent, deathly silent....then you can randomly hear an overly hormonal woman start crying. We all know why we are here, we catch glimps of each other from the corner of our eyes, wondering what each other is thinking. 

Hubby goes off for his test, 5 mins later and $400 poorer and we leave.

I have to act overly nice and encouraging to make him feel important and valued. He said he felt violated, I chuckle. Lucky he has never had to have a pap smear, he would be in tears! That's why God made women the child bearing women that we are, because we can handle it. With a few drugs on the side of course! lol

Now we wait. IVF is one big waiting game.

The road to IVF

Yesterday hubby and I had our specialist appointment with Dr Gregory Fox. He has been in the industry for a very long time and specialises in male infertility.

I managed to get an appointment with him quite early, as there was a cancellation, but it was a 2pm, so had to dash off from work.

I was a bit flustered, rushing on the roads to get there on time, but I made it. I met hubby there, he was half falling asleep having worked a very long day before on Melbourne Cup day. I gave us both a quick pep talk before we went in and off we went.

Dr Fox confirmed everything that we already knew. That hubby has verrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrryyyyyyy low sperm count. He booked hubby in for a another sperm test next Tuesday, just to re-confirm the results, but said he knows with certainty that they wont have improved. Because of this from here on out every sperm test has to be frozen so that we can keep the sperm that he has left. Dr Fox predicts that in 5 years he wont have any left.

IUI is out of the question. Which I knew deep down, was just being overly hopeful. So IVF it is.

Dr Fox said that he believes we have a high chance of getting pregnant, because we are so young! YAY!

So for the next couple of weeks we will be having blood tests, utltra sounds and seeing IVF counsellors in preparation for our journey into IVF land. We will have to do ICIS, which is where they inject a single sperm into the egg in a petri dish. This is because of the low sperm count that this will have to be done, which adds $1000 to the figure!

The actual cost of doing the first round of IVF is not to bad $3500 out of pocket. Its the medication ($450), day bed in hospital ($800), anithist ($250), day bed again ($350), every single time you do a round of IVF that adds up. For our first month, we're looking at $5500 after our medicare rebate.

Its a lot cheaper than america, but its still a lot of money! Factor in every appointment with Dr Fox is $140.

So here is what I am hoping. That our first round of IVF produces heaps of eggs and we're left with atleast 5 GREAT embryos that can be used. Hope the first one takes, then we will freeze the other 4 and use them when we want more children. A girl can hope, right?