Better luck next time!

I've been all kinds of emotional over this two week wait (2ww). Been feeling really nauseous and needing to eat all the time, which is rare for me as I usually don't have a big appetite. I started having some brown spotting the last 3 days, which is meant to be normal, but then I got my period. :( 

Will have a blood test in a couple of days to confirm, but know my body pretty well and this is it.

Will do another transfer next month.

I'm surprisingly not that devastated. I guess after getting so much bad news week after week, month after month, I've kind of become use it.

Until next time!

Xx

Transferring!

I've just had my transfer! 

Woo hoo! 

I couldn't sleep a wink as I was just SO excited. Went in and saw the nurse before hand and my blood pressure was really high :/ so I have to monitor that. She explained the procedure and said it is quite uncomfortable- I began to freak out...not really sure why I listen to other people as it didn't even hurt at all. I hoping this trend continues throughout my pregnancy.

Our embryo thawed nicely and began growing which is a good sign. We got to see it on the screen and I shed a little tear, it was very emotional for me as I was so happy this was finally happening.

So now I have the two week wait. I'm remaining super positive as I know this is going to work!

Still chugging along...

Only a week out from my transfer now and I'm getting excited. I have a really good feeling that it is going to work. I feel strong and healthy and ready. 

I've had a scan and everything looks great, nice thick lining and one large follicle on my right ovary.

I have to do these urine tests which show when I surge (meaning just before I'm about to ovulate) then two days later they will transfer an embryo, as my embryos are 2 days old.

I'll keep you up to date with how I am feeling after the transfer.

Sorry that posts are getting shorter, not much to say!

Credit where credit is due

One of my biggest things is giving people credit when credit is due. Celebrating people when they are being great! Giving them a shout out to know that you SEE what they have done! It's the best.

I want to do this today for my husband.

The world of IVF has consumed me in the last couple of months. And even though I wish that wasn't the case, I've had to stop fighting myself about it. What this means is that I'm often exhausted. Having broken my ankle was actually a real blessing. I was able to rest and reconnect with why it is I am doing all of these things to my body. Even though financially it was very difficult my husband never once complained about the money (he maybe complained about having to do the washing again, but ey, who can blame him- washing sucks!) he just wanted me to rest and get better. We started our own business two years ago, my husband is the core and rock of its success. His charm and charisma wins over the clients and he works so hard replying to emails and phone calls on a daily basis. It's relentless and gets me sad sometimes as he is always on his phone. But he does it for me. He does is for us. For our future. For our children.

He told me last night that he is working so hard now so that I can stop working forever and enjoy being a mother. He too wants to be able to parent on a regular basis with me, so he is establishing good employees so that he can be amongst the hustle and bustle of every day life.

I'm just super proud of him. He continues to work on himself. As a man, as a husband and as a father.

Keep going babe, I love you!

It's like the song that doesn't end.

I finally reached day 3 of my new cycle and went in to have a scan. I was feeling great, over my OHSS and thinking I would be able to do an embryo transfer.

Well no.

My ovaries are still very enlarged and there are still a lot of follicles hanging about. I will have to wait another 5 weeks until I can do the transfer.

Just gutted.

This whole process is taking sooo much longer than I ever imagined and taking a toll on my energy levels. Hard to keep motivated. Just gotta keep my head up, but sometimes I just wanna stay in bed all day and cry.

Frozen in time

This is a massive update as i haven't had the energy to write anything until now. On the day of egg collection I jumped out of bed at 6 am and headed to the Royal Womens Hosptial with Hubby.

I had to be fasting since the night before, so couldn’t brush my teeth as I wasn’t allowed to swallow water. I decided to have a piece of gum instead. WELL DONT! The nurses had a meltdown, rushing around talking to lots of doctors and annithtesist. They threatened to cancel the whole the thing which would have meant I would have lots all my eggs. I was becoming irate. No one said I couldn’t have gum!

After the gum fiasco of 2013, i got changed into my theatre gear and went in. I woke up in recovery hic-upping. The nurses thought I was choking. It was all kinds of eventful. After the hiccups subsided I cried for 10 mins. Who knows why, I was just super emotional. As I laid on the hospital bed my results came 27 EGGS!!!!!!! Can you believe it?????? Best news ever!! My doctor said that my ovaries were HUGE though. So I will have to wait until next cycle to do a transfer. All this waiting makes me so upset!

Hubby did his sample and was waiting for me in the waiting room when I got out. I was in pain, but thought “ey, this should be fine” OH HOW I WAS WRONG!!! The worst pain in my whole entire life. Not even exaggerating! I couldn’t eat, or walk or move. Turns out I have extreme OHSS and my doctor is very worried. I have the nurse call me twice a day and I have to tell her my weight and how much I have wee’d. If anything changes I have to go to the hospital straight away! To top it off out of my 27 eggs only 11 are mature enough to use! Very bummed out!


My doctor and I talked about day 2 and day 5 embryos (Google it for more information). We agreed if any embryo was up to 4 cells on day 2 we would freeze them as they’re nice and strong and any after that can grow to day 5 and be frozen then.

Well we had 4 grow to day 2 and be 4 cell. All the others died. Out of 27 eggs I only got 4 embryos and to top it off they are Grade 3 which is average. GUTTED. No one can tell you whether it is the sperm or the egg quality or both combined that makes this happen but I am beginning to question the quality of my eggs as the sperm used is singularly chosen and is of the highest quality.

Just have to keep positive that none of them die when they get thawed next cycle.

Hang on little embryos- mumma loves you!!

It's trigger time

Had my day 15 scan and I have over 20 folliciles!!!

Massive number!

My doctor is worried about OHSS (overstimulation) and has changed my trigger injection to Pregnyl which is apparently replicates pregnancy. I have to take that at 8pm and will have my Egg collection in two days.

Feeling very sore and in quite a lot of pain but I am excited at how many there are and remaining positive.

Will let you know how I go after I've had the operation!