Last night we had an appointment with our fertility specialist.
I now have to get some more blood tests and an ultrasound. I’ve never had an ultrasound before, so I am kinda excited! I am hopeful the next couple of ultrasounds will show a baby!!!
It’s all starting to happen now. I am nervous and excited. We should start in January with our first cycle...that is after the police checks, the counselling, the lessons on how to inject yourself...EKK! Add to that the silly season of Christmas and working full time..makes me dizzy thinking about it... BUT IT WILL BE SO WORTH IT!
There are a lot more readers to my blog than I once thought. I continually have people messaging me or coming up to me saying that they enjoy reading my journey. So thank you! I’ve had 500 views of my blog, which is very thrilling.
Hubby last night went into a bit of tail spin. Reality starts setting in when you have all these appointments book... He started freaking out about money and that he isn’t ready etc poor love. After a calm talk he came back to what he is knows is true and that is we are SO ready for this. He will be the perfect father, and whilst juggling your own business and parenthood will be a struggle I know he will work it out. My favourite thing he said “What happens if I need to run an errand and I have THE baby with me???” me “Babe, just put it in the car with you LOL”
The thing about trying to conceive for so long, 2 yrs now, is that you have all his TIME! Time to think, time to plan, time to stress, time to cry. Lately I have been thinking about schooling. Yes I know it’s early days, but some schools you have to enrol your child as soon as it is born, so I want to get on top of things. 80% of my friends have children, so it’s been great for me to learn from them and what I think will work for me as a parent. At the moment I am obsessed with Steiner School’s. I love the thought of learning through play in a more hands on learning environment. I hated school, so did my husband. We didn’t fit in to the secular mould. We’re both creative people, and learn best from getting involved rather than reading off a blackboard. My parents were the same. So hey, I’m pretty sure that my children will be very similar. I love the concept of Christian schools, but struggle with the thought of being surrounded by Christians 24/7, because how will that help anyone?? I need to be able to show the love of Christ to those unsaved and I can’t do that if I only surround myself and my children with Christians. There are some questionable things about Steiner Schools, but there are also questionable things about secular schools....So I guess when the time comes and I can grasp my child’s personality I will find a school that fits well for them and their needs.
It’s funny really, that 20 years ago when my mum was getting ready to send me to school it came down to which was the closest to our house. Which I am sure was true for most mothers in that generation. I feel that Gen Y, my generation, is a lot more aware. Constantly trying to break the mould that the generations before laid down. Hey, I’m not saying that our parents didn’t do a good job, I just don’t think they were as informed. There are many things from my childhood that I have had to deal with that haven’t been pleasant, so I just want to ensure the best for my children with what I can learn. Showing them unconditional love, just as God shows me. I know for some, I come under the title of “wishful parenting before children” category... and that may be true, but is something I am very passionate about being a great parent and making wise choices for my children, I can only pray that I continue this frame of mind when I do become a mother... Makes me teary thinking about it... what a joy it will be to finally have my own child to love. If I feel this strongly about this love and I haven’t even had a child yet, imagine what kind of love God has for us. MIND = BLOWN!