Confession

I have a confession.

No I'm not a twelve year old boy with some strange obsession with pregnancy. 

My confession is I was really overwhelmed.

I started to freak out that after I had my transfer it would be only two weeks until I found out I was pregnant and all of you of course would want to know the answers.

But I didn't want to tell. I wanted to wait the first 12 weeks like everyone else does before they tell.

So do you remember a couple of months back my doctor was going to Italy for a month and I would of had to have a different doctor or wait two months... Well I decided on the different doctor, (even though i didnt tell you that) which then lead to me to not live blog.

Everything you have read since march happened to me, just not in the time scale you may have thought. I stopped saying things like "today" or "tomorrow" and started talking in numbers. All the posts I wrote as they happened to me and then stored them in a file with a future date.

The point I am trying to make is yes my first transfer didn't work and yes I had my second transfer. But I didn't have it two weeks ago like I let you believe, I had it ten weeks ago and I am so happy to announce that I am pregnant!!!! 12 weeks pregnant! And just SO SO happy!!!!

I hope you all understand why I stopped live blogging. It was something I had to do to protect my heart, but all your comments and encouragement have helped me even if they didnt match up to the stage I was at in my journey! 

From here on out I will be updating you live from my blog! 

I am due in March 2014 and can't wait to see if I'm having a girl or a boy!

Lots of love!!

Transfer, round two!

I've just come back from having my transfer! 

It was the last time seeing my doctor as he has decided to retire. Very sad but I'm so grateful for everything he has done. 

My embryo thawed perfectly and went from a 4 cell to an 8 cell overnight which is perfect. My doctor explained to the  embryologist that the reason for our IVF is because of hubby's poor sperm quality and she said she never would have guessed as it looked perfect!! Yay!  

My doctor also said he had a very strong feeling it would take this time and he never says stuff like that, so I'm feeling really good! 

Hang on little embryo! I want to grow you into a baby that I can love forever :)))

Short, sweet and sticky!

It's Day 10 of my new cycle and I went off to have a scan. Got one nice large follicle and my lining is nice and thick. Ready for a transfer in probably 5 days time. Praying that this is a sticky one! 

Better luck next time!

I've been all kinds of emotional over this two week wait (2ww). Been feeling really nauseous and needing to eat all the time, which is rare for me as I usually don't have a big appetite. I started having some brown spotting the last 3 days, which is meant to be normal, but then I got my period. :( 

Will have a blood test in a couple of days to confirm, but know my body pretty well and this is it.

Will do another transfer next month.

I'm surprisingly not that devastated. I guess after getting so much bad news week after week, month after month, I've kind of become use it.

Until next time!

Xx

Transferring!

I've just had my transfer! 

Woo hoo! 

I couldn't sleep a wink as I was just SO excited. Went in and saw the nurse before hand and my blood pressure was really high :/ so I have to monitor that. She explained the procedure and said it is quite uncomfortable- I began to freak out...not really sure why I listen to other people as it didn't even hurt at all. I hoping this trend continues throughout my pregnancy.

Our embryo thawed nicely and began growing which is a good sign. We got to see it on the screen and I shed a little tear, it was very emotional for me as I was so happy this was finally happening.

So now I have the two week wait. I'm remaining super positive as I know this is going to work!

Still chugging along...

Only a week out from my transfer now and I'm getting excited. I have a really good feeling that it is going to work. I feel strong and healthy and ready. 

I've had a scan and everything looks great, nice thick lining and one large follicle on my right ovary.

I have to do these urine tests which show when I surge (meaning just before I'm about to ovulate) then two days later they will transfer an embryo, as my embryos are 2 days old.

I'll keep you up to date with how I am feeling after the transfer.

Sorry that posts are getting shorter, not much to say!

Credit where credit is due

One of my biggest things is giving people credit when credit is due. Celebrating people when they are being great! Giving them a shout out to know that you SEE what they have done! It's the best.

I want to do this today for my husband.

The world of IVF has consumed me in the last couple of months. And even though I wish that wasn't the case, I've had to stop fighting myself about it. What this means is that I'm often exhausted. Having broken my ankle was actually a real blessing. I was able to rest and reconnect with why it is I am doing all of these things to my body. Even though financially it was very difficult my husband never once complained about the money (he maybe complained about having to do the washing again, but ey, who can blame him- washing sucks!) he just wanted me to rest and get better. We started our own business two years ago, my husband is the core and rock of its success. His charm and charisma wins over the clients and he works so hard replying to emails and phone calls on a daily basis. It's relentless and gets me sad sometimes as he is always on his phone. But he does it for me. He does is for us. For our future. For our children.

He told me last night that he is working so hard now so that I can stop working forever and enjoy being a mother. He too wants to be able to parent on a regular basis with me, so he is establishing good employees so that he can be amongst the hustle and bustle of every day life.

I'm just super proud of him. He continues to work on himself. As a man, as a husband and as a father.

Keep going babe, I love you!